mental gallery

never want to give exactly what's expected of me.
exceed your plea.
never want to give a treasure to a fantasy,
so just let it be.
am i a dog on a leash
when we're on a walk?
you'll still ask me to speak
but we'll never talk.
It's in my eyes.
It's all we think about.
It's in your eyes.
It's got a fever now.
It's silent and it's frail
and at it's bed we wail.
speak all you can tonight.
And though this mind denies
It's in my eyes.





marked yet spared:

one at a time
they slice and tear me
and meet the mark.
i am ravaged.
my pace seems slow.
am i left behind?
display a paniced smile
as my legs give way.
wait for me.
i'm on my way.
so, don't you wait for me?
wait for me.
i'm on my way.
who knows my value?
you're alright.
i'm on my way...





unity letters:

promise me this
i'll see you again
when i get through this.
it terrifies you.
take these promises.
i'm terrified too
but all that i've been shown
has proven it's true.
you said that we'd be united...
in the midst of this war
but we never knew who provided...
all that's healthy and pure.





empty theater:

you know your part for anyone.
as costumes disguise
the ignorant act that raised you up
never seemed so wise.
but when i mention the name of Christ
what causes you to change?
you hide behind the lights on the stage
and repeat your lines
as the curtain rises skyward
we all do the same.
acting for the empty theater.
dance and say your name.
the comic cries, the hero dies.
it seems evil prevails again.
take your bow and fade.
others wave goodbye.
why do they smile towards the sky?
to get your name off this playbill
a death occured in production.
take a bus to the edge of this city.
you're free to fly.





monday morning:

monday morning,
i never even saw the sun go down.
sunday's sermon,
still in my head but barely hanging on.
short lived wake up
is there any way to retain this thought?
as guilt is built up
i look at my heart and see what i'm not.
i know that i'm waiting to find something new.
i'm never going to learn more
unless i can focus more on You.
i think i fought a fairly good fight
and i know i won. truth is, i lost
i should have placed my life in the hands of the Son.





burned:

yesterday was colder than i remember
and yet, my will still won't surrender.
twister eyes still twist my eyes, as you do.
hold your breath because i'm coming into view.
everyone sees through the sayings we all know.
honesty is the best policy.
to tell the truth, i feel lied to
and so should you...
i guess it all works out this way
for a reason.
something new that i now know.
live and learn although,
you might get burned.





one for the money:

he gained the world
but gave his love away.
she would have stayed...
she would have stayed for the money.
what do you do? what do you say?
would you give it all away?
i don't think so...
you do it for the money.
that clever style that seeks to please
would you walk that extra mile?
i don't think so.
you do it for the money.
you do. you say.
you can't give it away.
you do. you say you're alone.





to be healed:

make your way. somebody told me.
i'm all alone right now.
i don't care anyhow.
i'll find my way. they already told me.
i'm floating on the brink.
i think i'm going to sink.
"slight what they say" my God told me.
"I'm standing by your side.
now, lower all your pride."
i'll make the way in my heart today.
i'm letting Him come in
as he takes away my sin.
we're seeing blindly with weak eyes.
but we will see again.
we're limping slowly with weak limbs
but we will walk again.
we're thinking clouded with torn minds.
but we will know again.
we're hearing barely with worn ears,
but we will hear again.





doubt and all of Thee above:

i'm the one tossed turned around back stabbed
pig-tending son.
when you tell me about the same time He saved you
i feel i didn't know.
better think fast cause they'll come to get me
it's a sentimental message.
this could be the one
where you tell me about the same things i just lived
and i already know.
I'm walking on a tight rope dare you die...
without a net suspended below me to
catch me, if i may fall.
acrobats, they run across
they're doing flips... wave off the cost.
man, they look so grand.
they're lifting me across this abyss by the
grip of one hand.
this is how i feel
at the end of some days.
so, hold me closely
that i might feel your embrace.




value:

suspect i'm the remedy.
i'm too close to make that call.
depend on this only hope.
just to think you love me.
wait for me.
i'm on my way.
so, don't you wait for me?
wait for me.
i'm on my way.
who knows my value?
suspect that i know it all.
just think that i crave a smile.
depend on this only hope
just to think you love me.
and i nail Him to the cross
as my value is displayed
in His expiation.





a song for the cycles:

evening.
here with my loneliness.
i'm craving
to pay my heart what's due.
i'm waking up
the pain that swore to leave
with this love...
obsession will deceive.
don't come around here, my dear.
i could sin here slowly.
don't come around here, my dear.
i'm ripped apart and lonely.
don't come around here, my dear.
cause i'm a failure.
so are you.
don't come around...
don't come around here.
you're so sweet.
each moment seems too warm.
a bad time
to give me what i want.
put the gun away.
put the gun away.
put the gun away.
put the gun away.





refinement:

you dry your eyes.
you dry your eyes.
the agony is still for a while.
you choke again on your sin,
and then release.
it's all been said
it's in your face.
the clowns are calling.
the choice is yours
no one else's.
just don't let go.
do you want to walk away?
save these tears for another day.
do you want to walk away?
my God, He won't walk away.
This is the pain,
and a reminder of the choice.
It's easy to make,
but hard to live out the cost.
We obsess to gain joy.
We obsess to gain love.
We're at a loss.
So investigate your life.
Investigate your heart
and rethink your choice.





travel on:

why do you look this way?
don't stare.
my dreams are damaged way beyond repair.
you caught me again telling lies to another.
we constantly give in to putting faith in each other.
let go, give in, i gave my heart away.
He's taking all the pain away.
i'm sure i'll be fine in a just a little while.
i'll gain new strength by walking these miles.
i'll let go.
i'll give in.
though i gave my heart away.





mannequin:

tripped out. drugged up.
now you notice the mannequin smile in a heartbeat.
the side you're on is criticized
by how they notice you're affecting their time.
you're just one in the background.
this rusted cell still holds her well,
but she'd just nod and say, "I'm doing swell."
i said to Louie "i thought i knew you well"
i said to Louie "you're taken far away"
for the ones in the background.
for the ones in the background.
what side you on?
for the ones in the background.





screen drentched eyes:

soap in screen drenched eyes.
they capture the video and,
what lies you on?
what dreams you over?
you assumed they're sound.
i assumed we're stable.
though they try and try,
we blink and walk away.
anything can seem the way I want it to,
behind these screen drenched eyes
there's a boy, who sell himself a mocker's fear.
the truth I knew was edified
i need you to stay right here by my side.
may poor examples fade.
i need you to stay right here by my side.